growing pains//like seasons change

the first nations people of Australia observe 6-7 seasons, depending on where you’re from

and I much prefer this idea than being confined to only 4

we do not have autumn. that tree is not from here if you see red leaves fall

I’ve never liked change, i hold on to everything with a death grip

smothering it, killing it. because I’m too stubborn to just let it go

wishing time would slow

I’m at least 5 years behind

if you could just give me time, pause for 3 months

just give me more time

but if the seasons can change 7 times a year, then maybe its okay to be reborn 7 times also

life ripped from beneath my feet

growing pains, just how seasons change

i am allowed to just be

to let the wind move me, water run through me, sun birth new freckles

change is inevitable and it happens every second

and i am so tired of fighting something i cannot grab hold of

time is water, wind and sun

i don’t relate to who i was in December

it has been 2 seasons, 3 lifetimes and nearly 4 months since